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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 18.06.2025 01:27

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I'm a 28-year-old guy who has never been in a relationship, nor can I seem to find someone who wants to be in one with me. Why do I feel like a freak?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

This is soul school!.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Is it possible that my TF caused a kundalini awakening in another person? He is famous because He is a singer. We have not met physically yet, but I have gone through kundalini awakening and DNOTS and their ongoing. I have also had soul recognition so I know for sure that He is my Divine Counterpart and I do not have any doubts about it. But it is indeed perplexing that somebody had an awakening at the physical level because of Him. Is it a test for me? I have a mixture of feelings. On one hand I marvelled at Him and empathised with the person and on the other, I doubt if this just a test for me. I would appreciate your pov. Thank you for much.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But, we were locked up after school.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

She wouldn,t have been !

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Would this be the day?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

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I will be 64.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

How do you fight the push and pull (manipulation) tactic if you want to win him?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I was 9 years of age.

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

It was going to be , some day.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Was to survive, this bastard.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Put me off passion for life!!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was seconnd youngest,

This is how, and why children get BPD.

(And it was in our own minds.)

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One cannot live in the past .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Ive learnt so much.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was scared of men, in general

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So whats the point in blame.

He knew the spot.

All the time i was locked up.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We were not on the streets..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I said to her

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He resisted the act ,that day.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Who then, do I blame.?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I don,t even have a pension.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She found it foreign!.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I waited trembling.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

We all went to grammer schools

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Im still living with it.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I have no regrets .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As i do to all so called friends.?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My family never makes their pension either.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I couldn’t, believe it.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She was in good health!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I write beautiful poetry .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was very sick at this time too.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

What did i know ?

And i lived it daily.

My life is so biszare .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So, i spoilt her more .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I think the readers, may guess!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She loved him until the end.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She married twice! .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But it wasn’t much.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I never cut or harmed myself..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!